I am feeling a little on the frustrated side this evening. I really hate finding out bad things that happen to my little girl. As hard as I think I am with her, I have so much love in my heart for her that it makes me physically ill to think that she is hurting or embarrassed about something, or having a bad day, or anything like that. That being said, most moms can just say something or do something or make decisions that will keep their child from harm of any kind. But I can't do that; because I'm just the step-mom. And because the birth mom is one of the people causing harm to my child. How do I protect her from that? How do I give her a sense of security when no matter what happens in life, that is her mom and she will always gravitate to her. Which is natural. And that is my sorrow. That no matter how much this woman hurts this girl, no matter how many times she calls her ugly (or insinuate that she is ugly), no matter how many times she flips out on her, no matter how many times she tells this child that she wishes she had a different daughter, no matter what, she will always love her mom. Which she should. She should love her mom, I just wish that her mom would love her too. And if she truly does the way she claims and the way it is assumed, then she really should stop mentally abusing this girl. One of the worst parts about this situation: I cannot do anything about it. I will just look like the jealous evil step mom. How sad. :( Du'as please.
P.S. I didn't workout tonight. I am too tired and frustrated and I think I will just go to bed.
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