I had a doctors appointment today with my gyno. Overall, it was a pretty good appointment. I am down over 30 pounds since the last time I saw her last year, which made the both of us happy. What is confusing about everything that I am going through is how little knowledge I have about whatever is going on with me. I thought this whole time that my rush to lose weight is so that I can have this fibroid removed so that then I can try to conceive. Well, I brought it up with my doctor and she pretty much said that if I had surgery to remove the fibroid I am essentially saying that I am done with having children because I would have a  scarred uterus and the possibility of more tumors coming back, or they would have to do a hysterectomy. I had to remind her that I don't have children and she said then the last thing I want to do is have the surgery. I asked her then how am I supposed to get pregnant if I don't have it removed and bleed all the time without birth control pills? She said we can make it work. So that gives me hope but not too much. I really have no idea about what I am supposed to be doing right now. 



The only thing I can focus on, is to get more of this weight off because no matter how I end up getting pregnant, I don't want to do so while still so over weight. Which brings me to another issue. I am busting my butt, injuring myself, starving myself (well not starving myself) but serious documenting every freaking calorie that I eat and am getting no where. This is what "they" call hitting a plateau. I don't like this plateau. It sucks! Apparently, not only do I need to add weights to my routine, but I also need to eat more food. Imagine that! Eat more food to lose weight. I guess I have been causing my metabolism to slow down from not consuming enough calories and in order to speed it up, I have to replenish the calories I lose from working out. o_O. Well, I will give this a try this week and see how it works out.